Friday, January 7, 2011
We’re at 18 weeks!
Feeling an occasional flutter that I think might be Lil’ Bit moving around.
Belly bump is getting harder to hide and Ive already gained a whopping 12 lbs. The cruel irony that I’ve been throwing up so much and still gaining weight seems entirely unfair!
I’m still craving grapefruit and Chick-Fil-A lemonade like its going out of style!
We’re just a couple weeks away from our big 20 week check up. We will have to go to Charleston for this one. Our doctors will be performing a fetal ECHO to check out Lil’ Bits heart. With Evie’s heart history, the risk of another heart baby is a little bit higher and they want to make sure they’ve got all their bases covered.
I’ll be honest.
Crazy to think that if we’d been state-side during my pregnancy with Evie, they probably would have detected her heart problem around this age. We had a scare at my last appointment a couple weeks ago. The nurse tried for 10 minutes to get a heartbeat with the doppler to no avail. Nothing but erie silence! ‘
The nurse told me not to worry as she left the room to get the doctor.
Easier said than done!
I sat with tears welling up in my eyes and C squeezing my hand as we waited for the Doctor to come and perform an ultrasound. It took him no more than 2 seconds to find the heartbeat once he placed the probe on my abdomen.
HUGE sigh of relief.
But the thing is…somewhere along the way with our sweet Evie, I lost my innocence. Pregnancy is no longer a breeze. A healthy baby isnt something I’m certain of. I dont take anything for granted. Somehow the stakes seem higher. The risks and fears threaten to steal my joy and I find myself paranoid about anything I eat or chemical/cleaning smells I’m around. The “what if’s” are a constant battle I have to take to the Lord!
On a lighter note, I have a dilemma. We havent found out what we were having with any of the other kids. I’m just old fashioned like that. I love surprises. Somehow, I’m not liking the idea of any surprises with this baby though. We had enough of that last time around! I want to know everything I can about this little one. Should I cave and find out?
We’re taking bets on what it’ll be? On the right hand sidebar, you can vote if you think we need to be stocking up on more hairbows or if I need to start shopping for some blue around here. So far the score is pretty even. What do you think, boy or girl?